Lost

Ever feel lost but you know exactly where you are?

That is how and what I have been feeling lately.

Utterly lost.

I am not interested in blogging.
I am not interested in television.
I am not interested in social networking.
I am not interested in shopping.
I am not interested in hanging out with friends.
I am not interested in continuing my encouragement project.
I am not interested in photography.

The only reason that I can figure that I am not interested in photography at the moment is that nothing is working out with it right now. When I finally get up the nerve to submit I either do not get accepted - at all - or they have closed whatever option I had before I made up my mind to try for it.

I had thought about starting up a portrait business on the side, but everything I do to try to pursue that fails. People can't work out a schedule, won't answer me back, (we are talking some free ones to some people that I know personally) or just don't seem interested.

I am starting to feel hopeless. I went on vacation last week. I took 4 photos with a DSLR and about 10 with a cell phone. In a WEEK.

Maybe I am getting too upset over this and allowing it to make me too uptight or depressed.
Maybe I am supposed to wait for better timing.
Maybe I am supposed to quit for a while and see if one day I will be more in the mood.
Maybe I am not supposed to be on blogger whining about my problems to strangers.

I have no idea of what to do.

I may be in hiding for a while.